Tuesday, 24 January 2012

Catching Up With Murder - Synopsis



My new serial Blasphemy starts on Friday, Meanwhile, some readers have been in touch to ask for more details about my novel, Catching up with Murder published by Raider International last year. For this reason, I am publishing a synopsis here today; I may well serialise it on the blog eventually. The novel is available to overseas readers from amazon.com & Barnes and Noble.com & (UK readers) amazon.co.uk  as well as (all readers) Raider’s own site:  http://raiderpublishing.com/Home_Page.html

CATCHING UP WITH MURDER: a novel in three acts (approx. 100,000 words)
By Roger N. Taber




SYNOPSIS:

In parts more black comedy than conventional crime fiction, the novel divides itself naturally into three acts.  

Act One begins with a young woman, JULIE SIMPSON, asking retired Chief Inspector FRED WINTER to investigate the death of an aunt, RUTH TEMPLE, found dead in her bath. Since a large amount of alcohol was found in Ruth’s body, the coroner records a verdict of accidental death.  Julie thinks otherwise but cannot convince Winter at first...

Once Winter is on the case, he not only embarks on various avenues of enquiry regarding Ruth Temple but is also reunited with an old flame CAROL BRADY whose husband had been murdered some years ago and whose son LIAM has been killed in a car accident although no body recovered and assumed washed out to sea. One potential lead after another leads to the same dead end, a village on the south coast called Monks Tallow. Moreover, Winter starts to suspect that Liam Brady is not only alive but inextricably linked to a series of tragic ‘coincidences’ there.

Act Two now takes the reader back twenty years to the early 1980s. A young man, RALPH COTTER, shoots his friend, SEAN BRADY, at Brady's home, witnessed by Brady's young son, LIAM.  Cotter, a married, closet gay man, is terrified that Brady will expose him. Cotter runs to his lover, Darren “Daz” HORTON for help. They head for a cottage belonging to Horton’s aunt. (The aunt is visiting her daughter in New Zealand so the cottage is empty). En route, they stop to give a lift to a woman, SARAH MANNERS, whose car has broken down in a storm. Shortly afterwards, the car skids and smashes into a tree, killing Sarah.  The two men bury the body and Cotter evades capture by taking her identity.  Darren’s aunt dies and he inherits the cottage. He and Cotter live there, happily enough, as man and ‘wife’ in an obscure English village called...Monks Tallow.

In due course, the past catches up with Cotter and Horton, driving them to commit three more murders.

Act Three starts where Act Two ends, and follows Fred Winter to Monks Tallow where he slowly pieces together this jigsaw of audacious masquerade and murder while inadvertently putting himself and loved ones in mortal danger...

Monday, 23 January 2012

Blasphemy - Synopsis [and other news]

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I hope those who have read any or all of my serialised novels on my fiction blog will enjoy them. Needless to say, copyright to my fiction (and poetry) remains exclusively mine.

NB  'Blasphemy' has been removed from the blog, but is now available as an e-book on Google Play, and I have taken the opportunity to correct some errors that appear in GLB print and e-editions.


Note: Blasphemy was first published in the US by GLB Publications, San Francisco in 2006 and distributed in the UK by Gazelle Book Services; it was originally planned as Book 1 of a gay-interest crime trilogy - Blasphemy-Sacrilege-Redemption - but by the time I had finished writing Book 2 GLB had moved the goalposts and expected a larger contribution to costs than I could afford. For various reasons, I never got around to writing Redemption; although Blasphemy and Sacrilege can be read as separate novel, I may yet complete the trilogy.  

                                   
SYNOPSIS

Blasphemy is the story of a middle aged gay man’s struggle to come to terms with the suicide of his lover, Harry. Breaking away from stereotypical gay fiction, the novel combines psychological and crime-adventure action; its flawed narrator and anti-hero, LAURENCE FISHER, embarks on a roller coaster ride of self-discovery, becoming inadvertently caught up in London’s seedier elements along the way.

Laurence enters into an unsatisfactory relationship with a closet gay colleague, NICK CARTER in a vain attempt to expiate guilt feelings about Harry’s death. He also goes cruising and is approached by a young rent boy, DANNY. Later, he comes across the youth badly beaten in a nearby alleyway, attended by girlfriend, POPPY.  As Danny refuses to see a doctor, Laurence reluctantly agrees to escort the couple to a medical student’s flat in Camden Town. Even more against his better judgement, Laurence then agrees to put them up in his spare room after Danny has been treated. By the next morning, however, there is neither any sign of the pair - nor Laurence’s wallet and other valuables. A few days later, Danny turns up again, this time with a wild story about Poppy having been seized by their pimp, FAT GEORGIE, and taken to a house in Battersea reserved for clients with “special needs”. Laurence and Nick Carter form and botch a rescue plan. Poppy is freed, but Laurence has to be rescued himself by PHILIP ADAMS who just ‘happens’ to be in the right place at the right time.   
           
Meanwhile, news concerning the death of his father and a conciliatory approach by both his mother and younger brother, MARC, awake in Laurence a desire to attempt re-establishing family ties.

Laurence and Philip are attracted to one another. Laurence, increasingly conscious of his age, seizes an opportunity to strike up a meaningful relationship.

Laurence’s house is ransacked. Danny and Poppy - the obvious culprits - disappear again. Philip returns Danny safe and sound, but it appears Poppy has been kidnapped by Fat Georgie, who is demanding the return of a ‘snuff’ video identifying prominent members of the English Establishment as well as the pimp himself. 

Laurence has to endure kidnap, beatings and narrowly escapes being murdered during a fast-moving course of events, the consequences of which include an untimely and violent death among some hard hitting revelations. Laurence offers Danny a home on condition that the youth finds a job and mends his ways. Danny grudgingly accepts only to disappear again. This, in turn, leads to Laurence and Nick joining forces for a new rescue bid, but this time with tragic consequences.

By the end of the novel, Laurence has confronted and learned from past mistakes and finally makes his peace with Harry. A family reconciliation is on the cards if not yet complete and a new life opens up for him.

Copyright Roger N. Taber 2005; 2016 

Postscript: A sequel - Sacrilege - was published under my own imprint in 2008, but that meant it has only been on sale in the UK although I have sold copies over the Internet. Both books achieved a small but nonetheless significant following.

Among other serials on the blog is Dog Roses, a gay novel hitherto unpublished except on the blog; it will follow Sacrilege as an e-book over the coming months as will Catching up with Murder which was published (in print form)  by Raider International in 2010 and introduces Fred Winter, a retired detective.  A second Fred Winter novel - Predisposed to Murder -  also unpublished other than on the blog) will follow. Last but not least, I will publish Like There's No Tomorrow as an e-book on Google Play.  So... watch this space. 

As with my poetry blogs, I do not post comments, but will always read them and reply to anyone who gives an email address. I have no problem with criticism so long as it is at least fairly constructive; it always helps to know why someone likes or dislikes a poem or novel. Feel free to email me any time at  rogertab@aol.com

While I am not in the best-seller category, I enjoy writing and feedback suggests I can tell a good story which is all I  can hope to do.  There are far better writers than me out there, but as a librarian working in public libraries for many years, I am also aware of far worse. Whatever, writing keeps me sane and happy. More importantly, it helps to keep my arch-enemy Depression at bay. I only hope at least some of you will enjoy the fruits of my literary labours.

Many thanks for your interest and support, both are much appreciated.

Roger



Friday, 20 January 2012

Like There's No Tomorrow - Chapter Thirty

CHAPTER THIRTY


WPC Leah Jackson accompanied Cathy back to Hillcrest to collect a change of clothes and some toiletry items for Steve and Lynette. To Cathy’s surprise and delight, her father was waiting in the hotel lobby.  As they hugged and kissed, she gave Leah a grateful smile. The policewoman, however, shook her head by way of indicating that. Frank Harrison’s arrival was nothing to do with her. Nor, as far as she knew, had the police been in contact with Cathy’s parents.
       “It’s so good to see you Dad!” Cathy started to cry.
     “What on earth’s the matter? What’s going on? Who are you?” Frank Harrison, clutching a battered shoebox in one hand, turned to Leah.
      “Shall we go upstairs?” Leah suggested after introducing herself.
      Later, Frank could only stare in wide-eyed incredulity as Leah and Cathy took it in turns to relate events of the previous evening. From time to time, he would squeeze Cathy’s hand and give her a hug.
Neither woman remarked on the shoebox Harrison had hastily deposited on a chest of drawers.
      “I’ll leave you to it for a while,” said Leah.
      “Thank you for looking after my little girl,” said Harrison.
      “My pleasure,” Leah told him with breezy laugh, “But Cathy’s more than capable of looking after herself, as I’m sure you know.”
      “Oh, I do.” It was Harrison’s turn to laugh before giving Cathy another hug and letting her sob a while in his arms.
      “Some more tea, Dad…?”  Cathy finally broke away and regarded her father with a renewed surge of pleasure and relief.
      “Later, love. First, there’s something I need to tell you. Perhaps now isn’t a good time, but there’s never a good time for some things, they just have to be done.” He rose and retrieved the shoebox.  Cathy regarded it with a mixture of surprise and curiosity as if noticing it for the first time.
      Harrison sat down next to Cathy in the same chair he had just vacated, but with an expression on his face she did not recognize.  
      “Don’t look so worried Dad. There’s nothing to worry about, honestly. It’s all over bar the shouting.  Lynette and Steve are fine, so am I. As for Cartwright, the police are sure to catch him soon. So cheer up, eh? We’ll go to the hospital together. It will do Lynette the world of good to see her grandpa and Steve will be pleased to se you too, I know he will. He’s changed, dad. We’re going to be okay, Steve and me. I’m not saying it won’t be a long haul, but for once, we’re both pulling in the same direction. So cheer up, okay?  It’s been a shock, I know. I’ve barely had time to get my head around it all myself but you…you’ve had no time at all. Oh, you poor thing, come here and let me give you a big hug!” She went to give her father a hug. To her astonishment and consternation, however, he got up and proceeded to pace up and down the room, still clutching the shoebox.
      “What’s the matter Dad? What’s in the box?” But Harrison only paused long enough to fling her a pained glance. “For heaven’s sake, Dad, stop pacing to and fro like a constipated vicar. It’s doing my head in. Come and talk to me. You’re scaring me. Believe me, I’ve had enough scares in the last twenty-four hours to last me a lifetime,” she added with a dry, humourless laugh, “I need another one like I need a hole in the head.” Involuntarily, she began to sob.
      Harrison instantly rushed to her side and put an arm around her. “I’m sorry, love, it’s just that…This isn’t easy for me. Your mother…”
      “Yes, why isn’t she with you?”  Cathy interrupted.
      “She doesn’t even know I’m here,” Harrison confessed.
      “I don’t understand.”
      “You will soon enough,” he father told her wearily, “It’s all here, in the box.”
      “What is?”
   “Your birth certificate, among other thing…and some photos too as well as a letter from your grandfather.”
      “My grandfather…?”
      “He came to see us after you’d been with us a few years. I wanted you to have it, but your mother was terrified of losing you. She loves you so much, we both do.” 
      Tears started to roll down the grizzled face, but Cathy could only stare, unmoved, unable to quite grasp the enormity of what she had just been told. She opened the box. Her eye began to focus, fingers touch, although not a single memory stirred. She studied photographs, details and names on a birth certificate that meant nothing to her. Then she opened the letter and read how and why her grandfather had believed she was better off with the Harrisons than with her own parents.
      A hand pressed against hers. She snatched it away. “How could you?” she cried in a sudden burst of fury and anguish, “How could you have kept this for me? You knew what it would have meant to me. Well, obviously you didn’t or you wouldn’t have waited all these years. All these years…” she repeated…”All these years without knowing… and now…this!” Still clutching the letter, she hurled the shoebox and its contents to the floor. “It’s a bit late now!”
      “Don’t say that. It’s not too late. You say you and Steve are back on track. If that’s true and it’s not too late for two people to come together, why should it be too late for us?”
      Cathy got to her feet and walked towards the door.
     “Cathy, wait!” Harrison pleaded. “You once told me that not knowing who you are had left a gaping hole in your life that could never be filled, that it made you feel half a person. You’ve never been that. But the hole I can understand. Your mother and I should have given you a chance to fill it years ago, and I can only pray you’ll find it in your heart to forgive us. But it wasn’t only your mother who was so afraid of losing you. I felt the same, only for a different reason. Your mother was afraid of losing your love and I never doubted that. But your grandfather told us about your parents. I expect it’s all in the letter.  I was afraid the wonderful, wonderful, person I had come to know and love as my daughter would turn into stranger again once she knew the truth. Truth can be hard to stomach at any age, and you were barely in your teens. I convinced myself it could only hurt you and I couldn’t bear it, although…” His low voice broke, “if I’m truly honest with myself, I dare say I was being every bit as selfish as your mother…”
     At the door, Cathy paused a while before turning to face the only father she had ever known.  “You could have told me when I was much older,” she pointed out,” when I had Lynette. You and Mum knew how bad it was for me after she was born. You knew that hole was partly the reason I couldn’t make my marriage work no matter how hard I tried. You watched me push my husband into another woman’s arms, knowing that the way I felt about myself was largely to blame. Haw can you say you didn’t want me to get hurt? Have you any idea what it’s been like for me? Hell, that’s what, sheer hell. I’ve had to try and take each day as it comes, knowing the next might well be a damn sight worse. You could have helped me, yet you did nothing. Nothing, nothing, nothing…!”
      “We did our best to support you, be there for you…love you,” Frank Harrison protested, “We thought, hoped it was enough.”
      “I thought so too, once. Not any more. I think you had better leave.”
      “I can drive you to the hospital.”
      “Leah will do that. Go Dad, and leave me in peace to…Oh, just…GO.”
     Frank Harrison rose and walked unsteadily towards her, a pleading expression on the tear stained face. “Don’t say anything Dad. Not another word, please.  Let me think this through. I’ll be in touch soon, I promise.” But even to her, the words sounded stiff and unfeeling.
      Almost as soon as Harrison had gone, Leah returned. “I’ve packed a few things from Lynette’s room. I hope that’s okay?”  Cathy nodded wordlessly. One look at the pale face and its anguished expression warned the policewoman to tread carefully. It was the face of a woman on the edge. “Would you prefer I leave and come back later?”
      Cathy shook her head.
       “Do you want to talk about it?”
      Again, Cathy shook her head. “Give me a minute and we’ll go the hospital. Can you make sure we take Lynette’s teddy bear?” She dashed to the bathroom, kicked the door shut behind her and expected to throw up in the wash basin. Only, nothing came. No vomit, no tears. A terrible ache spread through her whole body like ripples on a pond. “Give it time,” she told the bland basin as she gripped its sides as if her life hung in the balance. Time, yes. I just need time, and then... But, try as she might, she could not reach any ‘then’ only a sickening ‘now’ more horrible even than she had experienced during those endless nights she had lain awake inventing a childhood of which she had no memory.
Leah Jackson sat in a chair and grimaced. Sounds of retching some time coming from the bathroom became gradually less violent. “It’s a life for a crust, or a crumb if you’re lucky,” she told a fly on the wall with a weary sigh. Moreover, she could have sworn it flexed its wings sympathetically back at her.
……………………………
Meanwhile, at the Shepherds’ flat, Anne was starting to recover consciousness. Raised voices kept her from opening her eyes.
      She lay quite still. As her hearing improved, so too did her memory. It was all she could do not to scramble to her feet and make a run for it. But common sense prevailed. What chance did she stand against two men, one armed with a gun? It was all so incredible, surreal, and…true. She guessed she was lying on the sofa. A shiver ran down her spine then another and another…
      “Why couldn’t you have stayed upstairs?” cried a voice Anne only placed as Owen Shepherd’s by its distinctive burr. The tone was entirely foreign to her. “She need never have known you were here,” the voice raged on. “She need never have known anything, you bastard! But you couldn’t bear it, could you? You couldn’t bear to think I could possibly be happy with someone while you…” the voice sneered, “You wouldn’t know happiness if it got up and slapped you round the face!”
      “And you would, you pathetic little moron? Do you really think you could have been happy with her? More to the point, could she have been happy with you? I don’t think so. Not for long at any rate. She’d have sussed you out for what you are soon enough, just like your mother did.”
       “And yours didn’t?”
      “Yes, she knew. I didn’t have to tell her either. I didn’t go running to her in tears begging forgiveness, promising never to do it again. Yes, she knew. She probably blames herself too, just like Alice. But I don’t blame her. I am what I am and more the pity that, but it has nothing to do with my mother. I didn’t put her on the spot the way you did Alice. My God, how she must have hated you for that, making her responsible for your crimes.”
      “Our crimes….” Owen corrected him bitterly.
     “Yes, our crimes. As for happiness, Fern and I were happy enough until you took a fancy to little Carrie.”
       "And you didn’t?”
      “Maybe I did, but I wouldn’t have done anything about it if you hadn’t gone on and on about it. You got inside me, damn you, and there was no turning back after that.”
      “You egged me on. You made me do it. But then that’s what voyeur’s do, isn’t it? You haven’t the bottle to do anything first hand. It’s all second hand with your sort. Happy with Fern, were you? How happy was she with you, I wonder? I bet you never had sex with her once without having to make believe she was Carrie.  Do you think she didn’t know that? Do you think she couldn’t feel she was second best? How happy do you think she would have been if she’d known she was playing second best to her own daughter, eh?”
      “I was trying, damn you. I was really trying. Then you had to come along and stick the knife in. But at least the sex was real. I’ve never had to kill anyone to get a hard on or settle for wanking over a child’s dead body!”
      This was too much for Anne. “No!” she screamed, scrambled to her feet and regarded both men in turn. It was on Owen that her livid gaze rested. She no longer cared about the gun. Let Cartwright shoot her, although a sixth sense told her he hadn’t the nerve. Leaving people to burn to death was one thing, looking someone in the eye while you shoot them was something else. “You bastard, you bastard…!” She hurled a stream of abuse at Owen that included words she hadn’t even realized she knew. “I thought you were my friend, and all the time…”
      Owen cringed as Anne piled invective upon invective with a savagery he would never have believed of this small woman whose very ordinariness and subtle strength he had always admired. He had admired, too, the way she always conducted herself with quiet dignity. Now, in her place, he saw only a she-wolf with fangs bared.
      “I’m sorry,” he whimpered. It was a pitiful sound that had the immediate effect of stopping Anne’s tirade dead in its tracks.
     “Sorry?” she hissed, “Is that all you’ve got to say for yourself? Your poor mother must have wished you’d never been born. How she must have dreaded anyone finding out.” A terrible thought struck her as she spoke. “That’s why you killed her isn’t it?  Not because she was suffering but in case she did anything rash, like attempting to redeem herself on her deathbed. Dear God, it was me, wasn’t it?  Once I asked you about Fern McAllister, poor Alice was already as good as dead. You couldn’t risk her telling me the truth. Oh, Owen, you fool. Your mother loved you. She was frightened for you, not for herself. For you, you…you sick, sick man, you monster!”
      She paused for breath then rounded on Cartwright. “You’re no better. You’re pathetic, the pair of you.  And if you think carrying a gun makes one iota of difference, you’re very much mistaken. Only cowards carry guns. Only cowards point them at innocent people. Only cowards try to burn them alive. Only cowards take the trust of innocent children and turn it into something so horrible it doesn’t bear thinking about.”
     Feeling incredibly calm all of a sudden, she looked coolly from one to the other. “Now, which one of you is going to tell me where you hid Carrie McAllister’s body?”
      “Don’t you want to know what happened to Patricia?” Owen sobbed.
      “If you mean, do I want you to paint me a picture, no I don’t. Nor do I need the police or either of you to tell me it was Patricia’s body Kirk Spencer dug up in the shrubbery. At least she can rest in peace now. Doesn’t Carrie McAllister deserve the same?”
      “I have to hand it to you, Mrs G,” Cartwright admitted, “I thought you’d be a pushover. Looks like you made the same mistake, eh, Owen?”
      “Anne, I…” Owen Shepherd stammered.
     “Where did you bury Carrie McAllister? Anne felt suddenly faint.  But she had to know or she would never be able to look Fern McAllister in the face again. “Well, I’m waiting.
      It was Cartwright who finally answered. “I left a letter with my mother. Only to be opened in the event of my death, you understand.  Among other things, it describes exactly where we buried Carrie.”
      “What did you do that for?” Shepherd demanded, “She may open it or the police might find it. They’re bound to search the house.
      “So?”  Cartwright seemed genuinely surprised by the other’s reaction.
      “So we’re done for, finished. Everyone will know and…Oh, God, everyone will know,” he groaned.
     “And we’ll be swept up for prison fodder, along with the junkies and the druggies and all the rest of society’s dregs. Sounds about right, don’t you think?”
      “Don’t flatter yourself,” Anne told him scathingly, “the worst of society’s dregs doesn’t begin to describe people like you. As for the event of your death, I’ll gladly write your obituary.”
    “I really do take my hat off to you, Mrs G. Most women would take one look at this,” waving the handgun with air of practised performer, “and be pleading for their lives, but not you. Oh, no. Not Anne Gates, mother of the late Patricia Gates. You really are an extraordinary person.” He turned to Owen. “You still don’t get it, do you? We’re already done for, finished. Oh, God everyone will know,” he mimicked with a wicked laugh. “I have to hand it to you Owen. You are such a drama queen!” Cartwright threw back his head and roared with laughter until tears filled his eyes. No once, though, did he forget to point the gun directly at Anne.
      “I’m not afraid to die,” Anne only partially lied. “Tom, my ex husband will see to our daughter’s funeral, and that’s all I’ve lived for. Only, you won’t kill me, will you? Where’s the thrill, the excitement in shooting plain, boring old me?” She glanced at Owen. “I bet you haven’t even got an erection, eh, Owen dear?”
      Shepherd blushed scarlet.
      “I wouldn’t mind betting you’ve hit the nail right on the head there, Mrs G.” Cartwright began to giggle. “Brandies all round again, I think. Will you do the honours, Mrs G?”
      Anne walked unsteadily to the cabinet and reached for the bottle.
      A shot rang out. Anne froze. 
     A second shot blasted her eardrums. Slowly, very slowly, she turned. Both men were sprawled on the floor. Unable to let go of the brandy bottle, she went and stood over each body in turn. She did not need to feel a pulse to know they were dead. Cartwright’s face, smoking gun beside him where it had slipped from his right palm, wore an expression of smug satisfaction. Blood pouring from his temple told its own story.
Shepherd, on the other hand, looked appalled, terrified, as if he had understood during the last split second of his life that Cartwright intended to kill him. “Or did you get a glimpse of hell, Owen dear?” Anne asked of the spreading bloodstain on his shirt where, only minutes earlier, a heart had beat beneath. Heart, what heart?
     Anne took a cautious swig from the bottle, spluttered, caught her breath, and took another before making her way to the garden to call first the police then Kirk Spencer on her mobile phone. She could not face calling from the flat. I have to get out of here before I crack and fall apart. 
     She would never quite recall what she said. For a start, she could barely hear herself speak above the din some hens were making.
     Slipping the phone into a pocket, Anne struggled in vain to prevent her gaze from wandering towards the shrubbery. It looked much the same as always. Certainly, there were no obvious signs of a police presence. A bird rose from within its dark heart. She thought it was a skylark, but couldn’t be sure. Whatever, it sang sweetly and hovered a while before soaring upwards. Now, but a dark speck on a patch of blue between clouds, now…vanished. Was it going to rain, she wondered? Not that it mattered. The rest of the day was already spoken for, not least with giving a statement to the police. Then she would have her work cut out satisfying a general curiosity, not to mention keeping the press happy. She shivered. It was all so horribly familiar. Could she bear it?  Tom was on his way, but her ex-husband was unlikely to prove much help. On the contrary, he would be expecting her to provide a shoulder to cry on and more besides.Spence, on the other hand, would be a tower of strength. 
      Anne permitted herself the flicker of a smile. Spence had called earlier to tell her that he and Charley were getting married. Apparently, Charley was insisting that she, Anne, be her maid of honour. “We’ll see,” she told a hen that, like its companions, had quietened and was strutting around with the same proprietary air as always. The smile broadened as she recalled how she’d also been invited to spend time with the Taylors. There was, after all, much to which she could look forward.
      Why had Cartwright shot Owen, she wondered?  He must have realized he’d be sparing the man he plainly hated a fate worse than death, surely? She shrugged. Why should I care? Absently, she pinched her arm as if to reassure herself she was awake and not in the last throes of a nightmare. Thank God, it’s all over. Instantly, she corrected herself. What am I saying? Of course it’s not over and won’t be, can’t be until I’m dead and gone. She sighed, but the smile took on a new lease of life.  At least things are looking up for once. And if this is as good as it gets, who am I to complain?
      Turning to face the old house whose ground floor had been the scene of such recent horror, Anne was amazed that she could feel so calm. Even the shrieking of emergency sirens in her ears did nothing to threaten a welcome if illusory peace of mind. 



Monday, 16 January 2012

Like There's No Tomorrow - Chapter Twenty-Nine

CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE


      WPC Leah Jackson drove Anne to the Royal Sussex County Hospital where Lynette and her father had been assigned a small private ward. Both, she assured Anne, were being kept in merely for observation, although the policewoman also intimated that it would be far easier to provide police protection this way than at the hotel. “I’m sure they’re in no danger, but better safe than sorry till Cartwright’s under lock and key?” she told the startled Anne.
      Since Charley was not in a private ward, Anne could only assume the police thought Lynette might still be targeted by Cartwright. It was a chilling, sobering thought.
      Charley was asleep when she looked in and Spence was snoring loudly in a chair beside the bed.  Anne closed the door gently. Leah Jackson then accompanied her to see the Taylors. A young PC posted outside the door greeted them with a smile. “You go in,” said Leah, “I’ll stay and keep Nick here company.” She waited until the door had closed behind Anne before asking her colleague, “Any news of Cartwright?” 
      PC Nick Farmer shook his head. “He won’t get far.”
      Leah nodded but was not convinced. “Let’s not underestimate the bastard, eh?” was all she said., and it was the young PC’s turn to nod, his expression grim.
      On entering, Cathy put a finger to her lips, indicating a single bed where Lynette lay fast asleep. At the same time she ran to the door and flung both arms around her friend. “Oh, Anne, isn’t it wonderful?”
     “All’s well that ends well,” Anne trotted out the cliche without believing a word of it , but her relief was genuine as she returnied Steve Taylor’s broad smile over Cathy’s shoulder. Suddenly, he began coughing and reached for an oxygen mask.
      Cathy flew to the bedside. “Are you alright darling?” she clutched at Steve’s hand and Anne’s experienced a pleasant, tingling sensation throughout her body. Husband and wife were clearly reconciled. She was thrilled for them both and said so. “It’s like you said,” Cathy brushed away a tear, “All’s well that ends well.”
      Steve removed the mask long enough to ask after Charley.
      “She’s fine,” Anne told him and he visibly relaxed.
      “She’s quite something,” he murmured ruefully.
      “She certainly is,” Anne agreed.
      “So are you,” said Steve, much to her surprise, “I was wrong about you. I’m sorry. You’re welcome to come and visit any time.”
      “I just might hold you to that,” she told him.
      “Be sure you do,” said Cathy without letting go of Steve’s hand.
      “But I’ll love and leave you for now,” said Anne. “I’m just so happy that everything has turned out so well for you.  Lynette’s a strong willed child,” she added, “I’m sure she’ll get over this soon enough.”
      The smiling faces in front of her frowned. “I hope so,” said Cathy, “It’s all been such a shock for us all.”
      “Children are surprisingly resilient,” Anne told her in all seriousness, “Besides, she’ll be so taken up with seeing her mum and dad well and truly back together, she won't have time to fret about the likes of Bob Cartwright.”
      The name cast a shadow over them all.
      “I’m sorry about Owen,” Cathy said in a low voice. “I can’t imagine how he must be feeling. It must have been so awful, being accused of something so horrible and all the time…”
      “I guess the eye doesn’t always discriminate what the heart‘s crying out to grieve over,” commented Steve Taylor with greater insight than Anne would have credited him.
      “Things aren’t always as they seem,” she agreed tersely before bidding them a fond farewell. “Nor are some mistakes easily rectified,” she murmured under her breath upon rejoining Leah in the corridor. How am I going to face Owen? She could summon no interest in Cartwright, no flicker of curiosity even regarding the man’s fate. In her throbbing head, there was only room for Owen. And Patricia, of course. But on this occasion, Patrica must wait. Hasn't she waited long enough, after all? Owen had to be her prime concern. Leah seemed to think Owen would be released on bail, probably in the morning, pending further investigations.
      “We have yet to hear Cartwright’s story from his own lips,” the WPC pointed out, “and there is still the small matter of a body in his shrubbery to sort out...” She faltered, enbarrassed.
      “I suppose so,” Anne struggled to sound matter-of-fact as they headed for the hospital car park.             
      “I’m sure Owen has nothing to worry about,” Leah told her conversationally, “By all accounts, he's in the clear. Cartwright’s mother called the police, you know. Apparently, she’s pretty much put the finger on her precious son for the murder of the McAllister girl and…” she broke off, instantly contrite, “Oh, Anne, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to…”
     “It’s alright, really,” Anne was quick to reassure the young police officer, “I’ve lived with the idea of murder long enough not to be afraid of the word. All I want now is to give my daughter a decent burial. That, and hopefully find a way to make amends to Owen for letting him down so badly.”
      “I’m sure he’ll understand.”
      “Are you? I’m not. He must have felt so horribly abandoned, not to mention humiliated and desperate. How do you put all that behind you? How can you ever forgive?”
      They climbed into the car.
      “You did,” Leah Jackson pointed out, “You put it all behind you and got on with your life.”
      Anne rounded on her angrily. “Is that what you think? Well, you couldn’t be more wrong. Oh, I’ve got on with my life, but only up to a point, and only because I’ve had precious little choice. A life in name only, that’s all it’s been. I’ve put nothing behind me. It’s with me from the time I wake up in the morning until I grab what sleep I can at night. As for forgiving…No, I’ll never do that. Never! People like Cartwright deserve to hang by the neck until dead, and then burn in hell. Even then, their agony won’t be a fraction of what people like me have had to learn to live with.”
      “I’m so sorry, I hadn’t realized,” murmured Leah Jackson.
      “How could you? You see the same quiet, nondescript little woman everyone else sees. You assume, just as everyone else assumes, that I’m coping admirably. Hats off to Anne Gates, she’s an example to us all. Huh, don’t you believe it!” She gave an uncharacteristic snort that both astonished the policewoman and made her blood run cold. “I dare say we all have our share of designer masks, a different one for every occasion. They protect us from prying eyes, you see, in case people get too close and rumble us for the frauds we really are. No, Leah, the only example I am to anyone is how to live a fiction.”
      “I don’t believe that,” Leah insisted lightly, “and don’t forget I’m a police officer. We’re trained to suss out frauds, amongst other scum.”
      “It’s not the scum you need to worry about, my dear. They stand out a mile. It’s what lies beneath the surface of your everyday person in the street, that’s what’s really scary.”
      “Truth will out, isn’t that what they say?”
      “If only it were that simple,” Anne retorted as the car pulled up outside The Orion.
      “Would you like me to come in with you? I can stay for a while if you like.”
      “You’re very kind. But I suddenly feel very tired. Besides, you look as though you could use some sleep yourself.  Go home and get some rest, my dear. Who knows what tomorrow has up its sleeve? At least, once rested, we have an even chance of surviving.” 
      Watching Anne climb the steps more than a trifle wearily and enter the hotel, Leah Jackson could not, for the life of her, decide what to make of the woman. She’s a queer fish, and no mistake.  Even so, resolving to take Anne’s advice, she called in to base, and then headed for home.
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      Anne awoke to discover she had slept on the bed fully dressed. Feeling stiff, sweaty and uncomfortable, she peeled off her clothes with less care than usual and enjoyed a long, hot shower.
      Was it really only Thursday?  It had certainly been an eventful ten days. She called the hospital. Spence was very reassuring, even buoyant, insisting that Charley was in good spirits but sleeping a lot. Cathy, though, sounded cross. “The police won’t let us go back to Hillcrest just yet. It’s plain daft if you ask me. I mean to say, Cartwright is hardly likely to come after Lynette again is he? He’s probably miles away by now.”
       “I dare say it’s for the best,” Anne told her, somewhat absently as her mind kept turning to Owen Shepherd and what she should say when, as she fully intended, she went to the flat later that morning.
      She took her time over breakfast, so much so that Mel Harvey felt bound to comment. “You’re looking very pale, Anne dear. Perhaps you should see a doctor? You’ve had such a shock, after all. Well, haven’t we all?  But it’s good news about Owen, isn’t it? I mean, it does look as if he’s in the clear doesn’t it?”
      Anne tried, without success, to shut out the incessant babbling in her ear.
      “Not that one ever knows for sure, does one?”  Mel Harvey continued, bit well and truly between her teeth. “No smoke without fire and all that. But Owen Shepherd is such a nice man. I was only saying to Joe before breakfast, Owen Shepherd is such a nice man…and so transparent. Let’s face it. You can practically see right through him. Oh, he may have been under his mother’s thumb far too long and more the pity, but…Well, it’s hardly a crime is it?  No, I said to Joe, Owen Shepherd isn’t the type to have a dark side. He’s simply too nice. Oh, a bit odd, perhaps. Let’s face it. Who else would dream of keeping hens in Brighton, bless him? I swear some of my guests return year after year just for the pleasure of enjoying Owen’s eggs for breakfast.  I’d even go as far as to say Owen Shepherd is one of life’s few remaining gentlemen…”
      Shut up, shut up! Don’t you think I feel guilty enough without you rubbing my nose in it?  Anne screamed inside, but said nothing. A faint stain on the white tablecloth caught her attention. What was it someone had spilt, when and who? Had it been an accident or deliberate, an act of rage or plain old fashioned spite perhaps?
       “Everyone has a dark side. Don’t you agree, Mrs Gates?” Anne looked up to find Fern McAllister smiling icily down at her. “May I sit down?”
      “Breakfast is for guests only,” said a flustered Mel Harvey.
      “It’s alright Mel,” said Anne, “Mrs McAllister is a friend of mine. I don’t suppose you could find us another cup? Oh, and perhaps another pot of tea…?”
      “Well, I…”
      Anne put a hand to her forehead. “Oh dear, I do believe everything is starting to catch up with me.”
      “I’ll find another cup.” Mel Harvey scuttled away.
      “I understand your inquisitive fat friend is in hospital. Nothing serious, I trust?” Fern McAllister spread immaculately manicured hands on the tablecloth.
      Anne ignored the question. “You’ve been talking to Jessie Cartwright.”
      “She’s distraught.”
      “I’m sorry, I really am. No mother wants to believe her son is a child killer.”
      “Alice Shepherd did.”
      “Clearly, she was mistaken.”
      “Really…?”  Fern McAllister appeared to brace herself as a waitress came and laid a cup and saucer in front of her and another teapot within arm’s reach. The waitress left. She poured herself a cup of strong black tea. “More tea…?”
      Anne nodded “Milk, no sugar.” Fern McAllister leaned across, milk jug in one hand, teapot in the other. “Why have you come, Mrs McAllister? Somehow, I don’t think it’s for tea and sympathy.”  Fern proceeded to pour without speaking. “If you want someone to blame for the fact that your mischief making has badly misfired, I’m afraid that has very little to do with me.”
      “Whatever do you mean?”
      “You meant for someone to find that letter. How satisfying the chain of events it set in motion must have been for you. You can’t have had the faintest idea. It must have come as a dreadful shock how things have turned out, Owen vindicated and your ex-lover on the run for kidnapping a child…among other things.”
      “Believe me, Owen isn’t off the hook yet, not by a long chalk,” the woman sitting opposite her hissed. “If Bob is guilty of anything, it’s of being taken in by that monster. He was always easily led. Owen found a weak spot and used it to his own advantage. That’s what bullies do, isn’t it? Not that you’d expect much else from a man dominated by his mother. I tried to tell Alice she was being over-protective, but she wouldn’t listen. I warned Bob his friendship with Owen was… unhealthy, to say the least. When Carrie disappeared, I knew it had to be down to Owen. I also suspected Bob knew more than he was letting on. So did the police. They interviewed him for hours on end. But where was the evidence?” She shrugged. “No body, no proof.” She leaned across the table again, her face close to Anne’s. “But I knew. Oh, yes, I knew. Don’t ask me how. I just…knew.  If Bob Cartwright is a monster, it’s because Owen Shepherd made him one.”
      “You hate Owen that much?”
      “And so should you.”
      Anne shook her head. “It isn’t Owen you hate, Mrs McAllister, it’s yourself. You slept with a man who abused your daughter and you can’t forgive yourself for that. But you should, you know. We all make mistakes. We’re only human, after all. Hate ourselves for that and we might just as well have strangled ourselves on the umbilical cord. Oh, I dare say some people can live with hate, even guilt. But what kind of a life is that, Mrs McAllister? No life at all, wouldn’t you agree?”
      “How can you be so…calm?”
      “Oh, I’m far from calm Mrs McAllister. I’m angry that I’ve let my feelings get the better of me, and as a result, possibly lost a good friend.”
      “You can’t mean Owen?” Fern McAllister sneered. “Do you honestly believe he’s innocent?”
      “Recent events speak for themselves, wouldn’t you say?”
      “Damn recent events.” Fern McAllister stood up. “It’s the past that concerns me, and it should concern you too. If you ask me, it’s high time you did let your feelings get the better of you, Mrs Gates, high time for both of us. The pity is you can’t see it. You’re a nice person. The trouble is Nice always gets to carry the can. Nice never quite gets to the bottom of things.”
      “And you, Mrs McAllister, are you a nice person?”
      “I fear so, Mrs Gates. Shitty, isn’t it?” She turned on her high heels and walked away, a model of poise and posture.
      Anne stared at the untouched cup of tea. Part of her felt sorry for Fern McAllister while another part identified only too well with some of the feelings the other woman had voiced with such bitterness. She permitted herself a wry smile. “If love is blind then heaven help those of us who hate,” she murmured, and gave a guilty start. Hadn’t she hated Owen, for a while at least? It was time to face up to that mistake. I must, I must. But what on earth do I say? Should I beg his forgiveness? Do I expect it? Some things don’t deserve forgiveness. Betrayal is one of them.
      She rose and left the lobby, choosing to walk to the Shepherds’ house rather than catch a bus. She always found walking a very effective therapy. It wasn’t until she was standing on Owens’s doorstep that Fern McAllister loomed ominously in her mind’s eye. Why had the woman come? What had she wanted? It struck Anne only then that she hadn’t received a satisfactory answer to either question.
      The flat was in darkness, heavy curtains closed.
      Pressing an ear to the door, Anne listened for the tell-tale sounds of a presence within. She sighed. Owen was there, she was certain of it. In the circumstances, though, she could hardly blame the man if he chose not to see her.
      Owen took his time coming to the door and then only opened it a fraction.
      “Please Owen, let me in. We need to talk.”
      “Go away, Anne. We have nothing to more say to each other.”
      “I’m so sorry Owen. Can you ever forgive me?  I was upset, distraught. Believe me, I value our friendship. I can’t blame you for thinking I betrayed it. But…”
      “You did betray it and you betrayed me, just when I needed you most.”
      “I know and I’m sorry, Owen, I really am. I’m so, so, sorry. Please let me in. Let’s at least try and put things right between us. I should never have thought the worst of you.”
      “But you did, just like mother. She thought the worst of me too.”
      “I’m sure that’s not true. She loved you very much and you loved her. I dare say that’s why you took it upon yourself to end her suffering. I judged you too harshly for that too. I realize it now. Come on, Owen, please. Open the door.”
      “Go away, Anne, just…go away. I can’t trust you any more. Whatever you say, how can I be sure it’s not a lie?”
      “No Owen, I won’t go away. We need to hear each other out or both of us will live to regret it. Then, if you still want me to leave, I’ll go. Owen, please. We can’t leave things like this, not after all we’ve been through together.” She hesitated before adding, “…and all we’ve come to mean to each other over the years. Or has that been a lie too?”
      In the gloom Owen had the grace to blush.
      “Owen Shepherd, you can be so stupid sometimes. Now, open this door or do I have to force my way in?”
      “It’s too late, Anne. It’s all…too late,” he groaned. Even so, he opened the door. 
      “Didn’t anyone ever tell you, it’s never too late till the fat lady sings?” Anne pushed past him and made her way into the sitting room. She knew the way well enough. The gloom did not bother her although she was thankful when one hand groped for and found a light switch on the wall. “I won’t suggest putting the kettle on, Owen. On this occasion I think we deserve something stronger, don’t you?” She crossed to the wine cabinet, poured two large brandies and took a deep breath before turning round. “Now, I think we need to…” she began gently but authoritatively then stopped short.
      “Funny, I was just thinking that myself,” said a voice in the doorway, “...and mine’s brandy too while you’re at it.”
      The cry on her lips froze as she looked disbelievingly from Owen Shepherd’s tearful face to Bob Cartwright’s smug expression. It took several more seconds before her eyes finally rested on the handgun in Cartwright’s perfectly still hand, pointing directly at her.
      “He made me, Anne, he made me...” Shepherd began to moan as if in pain.
      “Made you, did I?” said Cartwright without taking his eyes off Anne, “You can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make it drink. Not unless it wants to, that is. Isn’t that so, Mrs G?” He did not wait for an answer. “And you did so want to, didn’t you, Owen? Me, I just wanted to look, but you always had to have it all. Never could resist it for long, could you Owen, that feeling abusing little girls gives you of being in control for once in your miserable life?”
      “No!” Anne screamed, covering her ears with both hands only seconds before the room swam before her eyes and went pitch black.
To be concluded on Friday.

Friday, 13 January 2012

Like There's No Tomorrow - Chapter Twenty-Eight

CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT


As the car sped through the Brighton streets, Cathy was already panicking. “We should have done as Leah said and left it to the police!” she wailed.
“Wait for what, Christmas?” Steve Taylor demanded as she slammed his foot on the accelerator and ignored a red light. “By the time they get their act together, it could be too late.”
“Don’t say that!” Cathy sobbed, and then pointed out more coherently, “We don’t even know the bloody way!”
“I do,” Steve told her. “A mate of mine used to live out Portslade way. I think I can find the place fairly easily.”
“You think?” Cathy’s was not impressed.
“Okay, I know I can. Stop whining, woman, and pull yourself together. You’ll be no use to me or Lynette in that state.”
His words had a sobering effect on Cathy. “Do you think this Cartwright man is dangerous?”
“What kind of a stupid question is that? Of course the bastard’s dangerous. He’s a fucking paedophile, for crying out loud!” veering sharply right then left then right again as he spoke. “We’re not going on a fucking picnic here, woman!”
“There’s no need to swear. You know I hate that word,” Cathy scolded him.
“Give me strength!”
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to… I’m sorry,” she repeated, “It’s just that…I’m so scared, Steve. Suppose he isn’t there or we’re too late and Lynette is already…” But she could not bring herself to say the word she feared most.
“Don’t worry,” said Steve Taylor brusquely, “Lynette will be fine, you’ll see. As for Cartwright…I’ll kill him. So help me I’ll kill the bastard!”
“No!” Cathy said quietly but with uncompromising vehemence. “You’ll do no such thing. You’ll leave him to the police. Promise me, Steve. If you don’t, it could be you who ends up in prison, and I couldn’t bear it. Promise me, you won’t do anything stupid. We don’t even know for sure if Lynette will be there or that Cartwright has taken her. For all we know, we could be on a wild goose chase.”
“At least we’re doing something,” he growled, “If I’d had to spend another minute doing nothing I’d have gone round the fucking bend!”
“Promise me, you won’t do anything stupid,” she repeated
“Okay I promise,” said Steve between clenched teeth, “although, if it comes to a fight, I may have to rough him up a bit.” A screech of brakes announced their arrival.  “You see, I told you I knew the way, ye of little faith,” he told her with a smile of grim satisfaction. If my memory serves me right, Hammond Court is that block over there.” He pointed to a block of flats just ahead. “It looks like we have a clear field too. No cops to fuck things up. Mind you, if I’m not back in ten minutes you had better call 999 and tell them to hurry up. Now, stay here and don’t move. If the cops turn up sooner rather than later, stall them. I’ll deal with this my way. They will only scare him off. ”
“I’m coming with you.”
“You’ll do as you’re bloody told, woman,” he snapped then, in a more placatory tone, “I need you to watch my back, love, okay?”  He was climbing out of the car. On impulse, he turned and leaned back inside.
The passionate kiss on her lips took Cathy by surprise. Before she had quite collected herself, Steve had vanished into what struck her as a scary, almost surreal surround of spreading, deepening shadows…Like something out of a gothic novel.
Taylor reached his goal in minutes. Glancing at the piece of paper in his hand, he hastily confirmed that he had the correct address and rang the doorbell. He was not prepared for the frail, elderly man who opened the door and found himself briefly at a loss for words.
“Can I help you?” the old man asked while taking care to keep the door on a chain.
“I’m looking for Bob Cartwright,” Taylor stammered nonplussed.
“There’s no one here by that name.” The old man started to close the door.
“It’s really urgent,” Taylor cried and thrust the piece of paper through the gap, “I was given this address.”The old man peered at the untidy scrawl, finally snatched the piece of paper and held it up to the light. “This is Hammond Court,” he said, handing it back, “You want Harmood Court, just across the way. You can’t miss it,” he added helpfully, “It’s the one with the phone mast on the top. Damn phone companies. Bloody cheek if you ask me,” he muttered angrily before shutting the door.
Taylor ran all the way except for pausing beside a parked car to listen out after thinking he heard a faint cry. But it did not come again. He shrugged and savagely tore into himself. He must stay calm. This was no time to start hearing imaginary voices.
He ran on.
The lift was out of order. Taylor took the stone stairway two steps at a time. His eyes were still riveted to the number twenty-four on the door when his nose alerted him to an unmistakeable, acrid smell. Intuitively, he looked down. “Oh, bloody hell!”  Smoke was creeping insidiously over his shoes. “Fire!” he yelled at the top of his voice, “Someone, call the bloody fire brigade!”
Panic-stricken, he put his shoulder to the door and attempted to break it down.
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Having cleaned Spencer’s head wound and made a makeshift bandage with her top, Charley concentrated on trying to calm Lynette while Spence staggered to a long, narrow window that looked out on a concrete playground at the rear of the block. He tried and failed to open it. The security lock would not budge. Where was the bloody key? Then he spotted a courting couple strolling hand in hand across the playground. They paused to engage in prolonged kisses immediately below. He hammered with both fists on the double-glazing to attract their attention but realized he was wasting his time even before they had moved on.
Dispiritedly, but mustering an encouraging smile, he returned to Charley and Lynette. “We’ll be out of here before you know it, you’ll see. The cab driver will be getting anxious about his fare, for a start. Gun or no gun, I’d like to see Cartwright put one over a cabbie when his blood’s up,” he joked.
Charley confessed her gaff.
Spencer’s face fell and then lit up again. He looked the type to smell a rat if you ask me. Even if he doesn’t wait for us, someone at the hotel will notice we’re missing soon enough. Besides, the police are out looking for Lynette already,” he reminded a sceptical looking Charley, “It’s only a matter of time before they turn up here. Let’s face it, my sweet, if you can work it out so can they.”
“I hope you’re right,” said Charley, unconvinced, but she summoned a reassuring smile for Lynette’s sake “We’ll have you back with your mum and dad before you know it,” she promised the terrified child. “Do you want to tell us what happened?” she asked gently, thinking it might help ease the little girl’s fears if she were encouraged to talk about her experience.
“He called out my name at the hotel just as I was going into the lift,” said Lynette hesitantly and added, “It could only have been a few minutes after Grandpa Owen left.
“He knew your name?” Charley expressed surprise.
“Yes. I didn’t recognize him at first then I remembered.  We met him the other day, Grandpa Owen, Grandma Anne and me, when we were in Lewes. They obviously knew him and the lady he was with, so I though it would be okay. I wasn’t to know he’s a nasty man, was I? I didn’t think I was doing anything wrong,” she added tearfully.
“Of course not,” Charley empathised and gave the child a reassuring hug, “and you’ve done nothing wrong, my dear, absolutely nothing. None of this is your fault.”
Meanwhile, Spence explored the room, quietly but thoroughly rummaging in drawers and even looking under the bed for something to use as a weapon against their captor. His search yielded nothing, although the glimmer of a plan began to take shape in his head.
“He said he was on his way to see Grandma Anne,” Lynette continued and I didn’t really want to go straight back to Mummy and Daddy. They keep arguing all the time, you see. It’s horrible. I thought Grandma Anne might tell them to stop since Grandpa Owen wouldn’t. He just kept saying it was none of his business. The man said his name was Bob and he had a car and we could be at The Orion in no time. I thought it would be okay. I mean, wouldn’t you? He even knew where Grandma Anne was staying.  How was I to know he’s such a horrible creepy crawly?” She began to cry.
 Charley took Lynette in her arms and comforted her. “Everything will be alright, you’ll see.”
“I know I’m not supposed to talk to strange men but…He wasn’t a stranger, was he?  Not really. Mummy will be so angry and Dad will hit the roof. I’ll be in such trouble.”
“No you won’t, I promise.” Charley spoke with fierce reassurance, as much to calm her own frayed nerves as the distressed child.
Suddenly Lynette’s eyes opened wide. “Look!” she squealed, pointing over Charley’s shoulder.
Charley turned. Her eyes flew to the door where smoke was starting to filter through a tiny gap at the bottom.
“Shit!” Spencer had seen it too. “Get off the bed, you two. Charley, shove the duvet against the door,” he told them and returned to the window. Where was the key to open the bloody window, he kept asking himself? “It has to be somewhere!” he muttered but a frantic search yielded nothing.Smoke was now already penetrating the duvet, now piled against the door. 
“Mummy, Daddy…!” Lynette screamed, broke away from Charley and ran to the window.Spence and Charley exchanged anxious glances. 
“What are you waiting for? Open the bloody window!” Charley shouted.
“I need the bloody key, don’t I? Think, woman, where would you put it?” 
“How would I know?”
“You’re always telling me you’re shit scared of being burgled. You must have burglar-proof locks at home, surely?”
“Well, yes…”
“So where do you keep the keys?”
“In a little pot on my dressing table, but...”
Spence looked. No little pot. “It has to be somewhere to hand,” he told his jaded reflection in the widow, “so where, dammit, where?”
“Try the wardrobe?” Charley suggested.
Spence went to a double wardrobe and flung open the door. 
“Not inside, you idiot, on top,” Charley yelled, rushing to stop a near hysterical Lynnette smashing her little fists against the glass. 
Spence felt along the top of the wardrobe, His fingers connected with something that felt like a key.  “Eureka!” He ran to the window and opened it.
All three were now coughing as the smoke took hold. Spence leaned outside. There was a sheer drop below. A drainpipe ran past the window, just beyond arm’s length. He turned to Lynette. “If I help you, can you shin down a drainpipe?” The child shook her head.
“Yes you can,” Charley told her, “Why, I used to shin down a drainpipe outside my bedroom window all the time when I was your age. My mum thought I was doing my homework, but I was really meeting up with the gang. We used to get up to all sorts,” she chuckled and Lynette rewarded her with a weak grin. “There’s nothing to it. You just have to remember to hold on tight.”
“I’ll pass you through the window and you grab it. Okay?” Spencer was already lifting Lynette.
“I can’t, I can’t!” the terrified little girl shrieked.
“Yes you can,” said Charley, “Mummy and Daddy will be so proud of you.” “Do you really think so?” The tearful face lit up.
"I really know so.” Charley summoned a reassuring smile.
“I’ve got you,” Spence told the little girl who reached, tentatively, for the drainpipe. 
Some people below had stopped to watch and were pointing and crying out in alarm. “Call the Fire Brigade! Spencer yelled to the little group then to Lynette, “Try harder.” He leaned further out of the window and tried to swing the child towards the drainpipe. Lynette caught on fast. At the third attempt, she managed to grasp the pipe with both hands. 
Spence let go. 
Lynette screamed, but kept her balance and managed to wrap her legs around the pipe. “Now ease yourself down slowly.” Spence told the distraught child. “Come on now. You can do it.”
Slowly but surely, Lynette eased herself to the ground.
.Spence turned to Charley. “Now it’s your turn.” 
“You’ve got to be joking! I’ll never get through the window let alone climb down a drainpipe! You go, and I’ll take my chances with the Fire Brigade.” 
Spence jumped down “I’m not leaving you. You can do it.” 
“It’s sweet of you to say so, darling, but I’ll get stuck and then we’ll both be done for. You know I’m right. You go. I’ll be fine, you’ll see. The cavalry will arrive in the nick of time like it always does."
  “I’m not leaving you!” Spence declared and embraced her. For several seconds they clung to each other and kissed fiercely in spite of spluttering as smoke continued to fill the room. 
“Now, go!” Charley pushed him away. 
“No!” Spence remained defiant. “Now just you listen to me, Kirk Spencer. If the worst comes to the worst, there’s no point in both of us snuffing it. No point at all. I may not be religious, but I do believe that human life is sacred. It is not something you throw away lightly, and I will not let you throw yours away. So stop fussing and get yourself out of here fast.”       
 "But…I love you.” 
“I love you too, which is why I will not let you play the martyr on my behalf. Don’t think I don’t appreciate the thought, my darling Spence, I do. But you’re far too young and good-looking to start chatting up angels. What are you trying to do, make me jealous?” She laughed and coughed in turn through a radiant smile and a daunting expression that brooked no argument. “Now, go before I toss you through the damn window myself…and don’t think for one moment I can’t or won’t!”
“I'm not leaving you!” Tears of frustration did nothing to ease the sting of a coil of smoke attacking his eyes. 
“Damn you, Kirk Spencer. You’ll do as you’re told!” She began to forcibly propel him towards the open window.  
“Okay, okay, you win!” Spencer sobbed, and was soon reaching for the drainpipe.
Charley watched him descend before retreating inside the room, debating whether or not rush the door and chance that her not inconsiderable weight against it would allow her to making a dash for safety. By now, she could barely make out the door for smoke. It has to be worth taking a chance, surely? 
In the distance, she heard the shrill sound of emergency sirens. Police, Fire Brigade or both, she wondered?  Whatever, a violent coughing fit told her it didn’t matter. There was no way either would arrive in time to save her. 
Come on, Charley Briggs, you can do it! she told herself and staggered towards the door, a handkerchief over  nose and mouth. She kicked the duvet aside. In spite of everything she couldn’t suppress a giggle. Suddenly, all she could think about was that she was half naked and wasn’t wearing a bra. Come on, girl, let’s give ’em an eyeful and be damned. She tugged at the handle, momentarily forgetting the door was locked. Who says big girls can’t do the business? Like hell they can’t! She stepped back a few paces before rushing the door. It opened to reveal a fog of smoke. She could just make out flames everywhere she looked. . 
Charley stepped back, resolve fading fast, terror taking its place. 
Barely had the sound of water that might have been a running tap reached her ears when a shadowy figure loomed out of nowhere. “Throw this over yourself!” a man’s voice she vaguely recognized yelled above the roar of the flames. A soaking wet bath towel was thrust into her hands. She did as she was told.  Although cumbersomely heavy, it was large enough to cover much of her exposed flesh. Gratefully, she let the firm hand that seized hers guide her, zigzagging madly, through a maze of billowing smoke and scorching flames even as a searing pain attacked both her legs. 
The smoke followed them out of the door and down the stairs. 
Once outside, the fact that she was safe and still alive hit Charley at the same tome as a fresh, summer breeze.“Thank God!” She sank to her knees and instantly lost consciousness. 
When Charley came to, a distinct but not unpleasant smell unique to hospitals told her where she was long before she opened her eyes and began to take stock of her curtained surroundings.
Spence was snoozing in a chair by the bed. 
Her legs hurt but, apart from that, she appeared to have got off very lightly, given the attempt on her life. A shudder ran through her entire body as she recalled how she had fled the burning flat. Who had rescued her? It can’t have been Spence since he was down below at the time. Her gaze rested fondly on his face. Dear, darling Spence. He hadn’t wanted to leave her nor would have done had she not made him. 
Charley’s eyes filled with tears. 
Spence opened his eyes and a lazy grin spread across the haggard features. “You’re awake then?” 
“As observant as ever, I see.” She opened her arms, but he hung back. “What’s the matter? I can still handle cuddle, just be gentle.” 
“I thought I’d lost you.” 
“Huh, fat chance! You don’t just ‘lose’ someone my size. But Spence was in no mood for humour. 
“I should never have left you.” “You might have died if you hadn’t.”  
“You don’t know that. Look at you, you survived.”
Charley attempted a nonchalant shrug, and failed miserably.“Who saved me, by the way?” 
“Steve Taylor.” 
“As in Steve Taylor, Lynette’s father? Goodness, did he really?” Charley sighed. “So I was wrong about him too. It seems like I’ve been wrong about a whole lot of things. When I think about what I’ve put poor Owen Shepherd through, I could crawl away and die.” 
“You’ll do no such thing, not when I’ve only just got you back.” He leaned across and took her hand in his. “I should have stayed with you,” he repeated, “I don’t know what I was thinking of, leaving you like that. As soon as I reached the ground, I tried to climb back up but they held me back.” “Thank goodness someone showed some common sense,” Charley retorted. “If you had, I’d have rattled the bloody drainpipe till you fell off. I warned you at the time I’d toss you through the window if you didn’t go of your own accord and I meant it. So you see, if you hadn’t burned to death you’d probably have broken your neck. Either way, you wouldn’t be sitting here now looking like a beleaguered vampire.” 
“I’m sorry.” 
“Stop apologizing and give me a kiss before I rip off this damn drip and shove it where the sun doesn’t shine.”
They embraced.
“What happened to Cartwright?” she demanded as they parted to draw breath.
“He got away.”
 “What!” she would have yelled but the effort brought on a prolonged bout of coughing. 
“Are you okay? Shall I call someone?” Spence was immediately beside himself. 
“Don’t fuss.” Charley reached for a plastic beaker of water beside the bed and drank the lot. “I’m fine,” she managed to say at last. “Sorry about that, but just thinking about that monster getting away with what he’s done makes my blood boil.”
“The police will catch him soon enough. They may even have him in custody already.”
“Even so, a man like that on the loose…It doesn’t bear thinking about.” She hesitated. “What about Owen Shepherd, have they released him? They must have by now, surely? He’ll never forgive me, neither will Anne. How could I have been so stupid?” 
“You mustn’t blame yourself. Everything pointed to his being guilty, after all.” 
“If it did, it was only because I wanted it to. From the moment I recognized him as the man I saw on the hotel stairs that night, even though I knew Patricia hadn’t even disappeared by then, I made up my mind he was as guilty as hell. I wanted him to be guilty. Oh, Spence, what have I done?”
Spence ignored the question and put one of his own instead. “Never mind about all that now. Have you decided? Will you marry me, Charley Briggs?”
To be continued on Friday